BIO
Stella Santamaría is an educator and writer in Miami, Florida. Santamaría holds an MFA in Creative Writing (Poetry) from Saint Mary's College of California, recipient of the School of Liberal Arts Dean's Award. Her poetry has been recently published in Nine Mile Magazine, Pennsylvania English, The Brooklyn Review, Juked, Courtship of Winds and The Rumpus, among others. Recently nominated for Best New Poets 2021. Her poetry book, California Silence, semifinalist for the 2021 lighthouse poetry series by Cleveland State University Poetry Center. Stella was the Sandra Cisneros Fellow at Under the Volcano in 2021. Santamaría is an alumna of the Community of Writers in the Olympic Valley.
hades formerly known as PG + EEEEEEE
please be aware of your skinny breath
slowly + deeply
bbq pine & hummingbird nests are filling me up
my porous pale skin
nowhere to go for 48 hours, 72, 96, 128
in a rental
with windows that don’t close
why can’t i just be in miami beach
breathing artificial tanning oils in summer heat & balmy polluted breeze
with the scratching of
jumping sand fleas walking to & fro
my balcony
please be aware of your skinny breath
slowly + deeply the lazy windows
signals
in the air
shallow short breaths go deep, deep, deep
wild bbq smoke pg+ eeeeeee and i still have
electricity grids ready
just in time for holiday shopping gotta have dazzling lights
my lungs heave then drs. playing
hades
in emergency rooms urgent cares hypnotizing red lights
surged & powered machines recordings by pg + eeeeeeeeeee
please be aware of your skinny breath
slowly + deeply
just got my survey from hades
how did we do?
did we treat you with the respect and attention you deserve?
where exactly are you doing your yoga?
rate us!
we already have trackers in your blood
in a haunted library in northern California searching for my Cuban history
waiting esperando barefoot permutated soles on crisscross 80s carpet leaving sand imprints walking backwards
sensors are triggered
the librarian jokingly said
the ghosts were checking out
returning their overdue books how disciplined
i replied
running laughter
on the ceilings & chandeliers in between stands
weighted steps up cold frigid air
astrally travel to cuba
because i won’t get the truth here
broken-down bottles lined up on the perimeter staggering on the edges of the check in & information help me
receiving desk ayúdame
rum & coke cuba libre reaching remnants
lo que queda de mi
now start projects non human collaborative unwilling unflinching
adonde están recordings
chivatones heard warnings about them as a child
sitting in the dining room chair
upholstered by my father
ladrones implementing tiempo other dimensiones this world is overdrawn
papel higiénico untranslated tick grey whales descompuesto pal’carajo
with no biologicals i am pérdida
no one else here
just the librarian and me
vaso vacillo hielo derretido
lips used to be pink empty glass
labios eran rosados
ice melted disengaging universal media perform for three clouds project the no you have to be
aquí no allí text proper todos los días lo mismo the i’m texting project
& these sistemas viciously taking imágenes & videos mi residencia pal’carajo project implementing
tiempo
because the fantasmas pass by & trigger the expired sensors & they’re back from sonars because
no soy vunerable
i am not
ahora hay agua en mi casa
flooded car project
i haven’t washed my thunder hair in three days
because bells because they’re over drawn overhearing bells because sonars under agua
porque no te acuerdas como ni cuando ni cuantos lagunas mentales
suerte luck
millennia tornado ending
theyre insidious tremors pal’carajo con todos & esto
cubana caminando ancestrally haunted siempre
hair swivels project media
relax
sonar warfare crypto dolphins feat beached grey whales they gave you tremors immobilize ron on your own
pasteurized spirits were in pursuit after you project relax relájate
where are your sources references balsabodies carcasses approved improved
google satellite images crushed glass rum coke plastic bottles en la arena
adonde están los fantasmas